Paint My Picture If You Must

The word is burnt out.

This isn't what I wanted to do with my life.

God help me, I need some time off.

I need to take a break for a little while. Life is getting complicated again. Once I feel that I can cope I'll be back.

Apparently, my cat has heart disease. The vet says if she starts to have trouble breathing again she could be here one minute and gone the next. I'm not happy, as you can imagine, but I'm being rational about the whole thing, if I keep good care of her she should live for a few more years. She is happy and fine now, better than she's been in a long while. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for her, and will be keeping a close eye on her, so if I'm slow on anything at all, it's most likely because I'm looking after her.

God, I'm just so fecking tired! But the semester is finally over and the next one looks to be better, and I've got a few weeks off so I can rest for a bit. Emotionally I mean, I still feel compelled to write and all that.

Please don't ask me about the French, I know I failed the final so I really don't wanna look at my grades right now. I'll be perfectly happy to talk about my Film Noir class as that went well, or even next semester's classes, as I am taking a class on Alfred Hitchcock.

Fuck Facebook, I'm gonna get rid of mine as I never check or use it and I am certainly well over the age of 16 so I feel I'm getting a bit old for the damn thing.

Got some new fonts, so I'm gonna make some new icons soon, can't tell ya of what though.

Uh, I really didn't think I would do this, but here I am. You guys know me, if you're interested in any of the storylines go ahead and ask, you'll get preference over everyone else because I know you guys won't fuck me over as seems all too common on my RPing life lately. Anyway, didn't come here to bitch, I came to post a link.

mariwashere

There it is. New SL ideas will be posted soon, if you care that is.

Idea stolen from Ashley:

Johari - Good
Nohari - Bad

20th Birthday yesterday. Nothing much happened. I did finally get John Stossel's book so I'm mildly content.

I seem to continually do stupid things as of late, my spelling is getting worse and apparently so is my handwriting. I like to think my university is to blame, and the lessons in French don't help at all.

I suppose that's it for now.

When you skip a Morality class because you don't want to watch the film, you had best make sure that you're looking at the right day. I had skipped a day in my estimation so now I'm going to be watching Million Dollar Baby, even though I had done my best to miss it. I was a week ahead so I had assumed that we would be having a test today, but I'm wrong, apparently. Oh well, at least I did a bit of studying so I will be prepared for the test next week. What gets me is that I could have been studying for my French exam that is tomorrow, a test I feel completely unprepared for even though I've been killing myself to learn it.

That reminds me, I haven't posted my schedule change since I switched to nights, so if you care, here it is:

COMM-ST 394 - The World Of "Film Noir" - G. Poe - 3.00
Sat & Sun 9:00AM - 5:00PM, 9/27 & 9/28, 10/18 & 10/19, 11/15 & 11/16
The course offers an historical survey of the development of "film noir" as a major film genre. The course examines the major characteristics that define "film noir" and offers an introduction to the historical roots of this genre in German Expressionism, as well as the social and political context for the development of "film noir" as a hollywood studio genre in the late 1940s. Particular attention is given to the social/ political conditions of the 1950s that contributed to both the rise and decline in popularity of "film noir" during the Cold War, as well as the film genre's revival in the "neo-noirs" of the 1970s.

ENGLISH 225 - Eng II:Inter Acad Prose - K. Kinghorn - 3.00
Tue & Thu 3:30PM - 4:45PM, 8/18/2008 - 12/12/2008
This course extends the work of English 110 with an additional emphasis on research. Each section of ENGLISH 225 uses a combination of book-length and shorter texts on focus on specific historical and/or cultural issues. As they learn to participant in scholarly conversations, students will find and evaluate library and internet sources. As with English 110, this course emphasizes revision, editing, and proper academic documentation.

FRENCH 110 - Elem French I - E. Roskam - 5.00
Tue & Thu 7:00PM - 9:05PM, 8/18/2008 - 12/12/2008
The goals of this course are an ability to speak and to understand simple (spoken) French as well as to read and write simple prose.

PHILOS 221 - Contemporary Moral Issues - C. Martin - 3.00
We 5:30PM - 8:15PM, 8/18/2008 - 12/12/2008
This course offers a philosophical examination of ethical issues in contemporary society. Topics for discussion include ethical conflicts arising in business and technology, engineering, healthcare, politics, and the environment. Moral concerns addressed may include reproductive rights and technologies, warfare, capital punishment, pornography, privacy, consumerism, euthanasia, sexuality, and animal welfare.


Sounds lovely, doesn't it? I swear it's making me crazy, yesterday while waiting for my English class, I signed up at a bunch of different dating websites... I have no idea why, I obviously don't have room in my head right now for a man, and yet I just went and did it. Though I will say that eHarmony personality profile was rather interesting. I might post it later, see if the rest of you agree.

Anyway, I was bitten by the writing bug a few minutes ago, which is good as I have a paper due soon, but I can't seem to focus on the subject. And to tell you the truth I wanted to do this as a vlog, but I'm at the library on campus right now and I don't need to appear any more strange than I already do... Maybe if Laura or Adam were here... No, never mind, they would talk me into working on their series and right now I can't really do anything other than French... Adam does have an awesome JVC though, maybe I should give him a call...

Just dropped another RP comm, I'm surprised it took me so long. Now I have nothing, or at least I have a PSL with the one I left with, but I'm sure some of you know how terrible my writing gets with PSLs.

Lots happened this month and I will update (with wedding pictures) as soon as I feel more up to it. Also, since I have no production classes this semester I'm planning on starting a vlog soon, so if you care, there will be more details over the coming days.

Only one is from A bit of Fry and Laurie, the rest are from Top Gear, and to be honest most of them are James May. I love Captain Slow, not as much as I love Hammond, but James is a whole lot more amusing.

Anyway, comments loved, but no need for them or credit if you take.

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Do you ever get the feeling that you are doing absolutely nothing with your life?

Who decided this new default scheme was a good idea?

Such a LJ rip off, and LJ's scheme is God-awful.

Some people have no taste.

Not my best by any means, mostly because good quality images are hard to find, but they're done now, as I promised.

If anybody knows where I can find more Helen McCrory icons, I would really appreciate it.

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I'm sick again boys and girls... Mom managed to get me and dad sick, and I'm sure my future niece is the root of all of this. Small children tend to get sick, usually because they attend day care where germs get passed around like candy, her mother doesn't realize this. I really should have suspected she would bring the child over sick, she's seven years older than I am and a mother, you would think she has a bit of sense, wouldn't you? She doesn't.

So anyway, I'm gonna keep drinking my lemon-honey tea and sucking down cough drops while I play sims2 and wait for my head to clear, or at least solidify. If you see me on AIM I don't mind if ya poke me, but know I'm not gonna be a brilliant conversationalist.

P.S. - No head for tags yet, sorry.

Aunt came into town on Tuesday, been kinda busy with her since then. She left today, but I found out I'm probably gonna be pretty busy here real soon, weddings mostly (not mine of course). Anyway, next time I'll post a heads up or something.

Working on a new icon batch text and PB. I'll post when they're finished.

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line(s) from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song. (Skip the instrumentals, the remixes and the mashups) I used more lines for weirder songs
Step 3: Let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

I'm keeping points. One point per song and/or artist. If only only know half, someone can take the other half of the song's points if they know what you don't. Only one artist per song so if you guess a cover first, someone cannot guess the original artist and get points. (But how I'm gonna know if you cheat I'm not sure, though you really don't need to since its easier than Lori's. Oh and sorry for the Russian song)

Anyway, winner gets a new icon!

( I never realized how many covers I have, but none have made the list. )

Saw him and we talked for a few hours today. I don't want to go into it right now, I feel a little drained.

I'm gonna try to do something for a while, at least until I can get my head around it all.

Music, because I forgot to do this earlier

Alright, so I'll be quick and lay it all out, or at least the important parts. We went to a movie a few days ago and had a great time. After that we went to Maggie Moo's, ate ice cream and they put Sleeping Beauty by A Perfect Circle on the overhead because he was able to charm the manager. We ended up kissing right there, I'm not sure how, we were talking one moment and the next we were kissing. You have to understand, this guy and I have a lot of chemistry, and I find I am completely mad about him, but nothing has ever happened because it was never the right time, mainly because of his girlfriend. They had been on the rocks for the past few days so I assumed that when we kissed that he was moving on. He called me everyday after that, and we talked for hours like we usually do, again I thought that maybe something was happening between us.

She called me up today and told me to throw on something nice, that he was taking her and the rest of their mutual friends out to dinner. I was surprised, but I did as she said, not expecting anything. So sitting at Brio the two of them are smiling and hanging on each other, and I get to feeling like somebody put something cold on the back of my neck. Anyway, after dinner they are smiling to each other and suddenly she pulls out the ring and flashes it around.

I feel utterly foolish and like I am a pretty terrible human being, as you can imagine. I was great friends with her, and I know I can't be her friend after what has happened and what I wanted to happen. And there is no way I can ever see him again, she is a lovely girl and deserves the best of everything but I cannot stand to see them together. Now she wants to talk about the wedding and everything that goes along with it, and I don't have the heart to tell her why I can't be happy for her.

It has been one of those days that I just wish I could disappear.

Just a few, no hidden messages here. Most from Eddie.

Does anybody know of a good font for Arillius? I had an idea for some icons but I don't care for any of the fonts used on the mod icons or the banners. I was thinking Impact, but I'm not sure.

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Okay, so I was on a very small text icon kick, thought I'd share some with you.

( Enjoy! )

I can deal with UMKC commercials on the radio, I can deal with them on TV, I can even deal with them as the ads here on IJ. But what I cannot stand is their new campaign, "UMKC a great place to get a life!" What the hell? Whoever it was that made this up is obviously stuck somewhere between 1985 and 1999. Something about the whole phrase just annoys me, I mean I love my school, great place to go (Scientific library 2nd only to Harvard and a 6 year med-school program), but I hate the slogan.

Lori, these are for you, I wanted to show you this last night but you hopped off before I could send it.

Your Slogan Should Be

Between Love and Madness Lies Mari

Okay so finals are done. *dancedancedance* And I'm happy, but I wrote a good five pages in about an hour for my history exam, so I'm not gonna write anything unless I feel inspired, at least for a while.

I went shopping after finals today, bought some new Eau de Toilette and I bought a great book (for only $12), oh and I picked up a trial of this eye shadow I love, called Sex Kitten (yes, Rox was poking me in my head but I told her to quiet down since I walked into Victoria Secret and Rosie was all over the place).

So anyway, we still have some cake so I'm gonna grab some and dream of Guinness Floats (I went to O'Dowds and I swear it's real and covered with hot and spicy peanuts).

Okay, so three posts in one day is an extreme rarity for me, but today has just been that fucked up.

The house my brother co-owns along with his ex-wife has a tree through one of the walls, as I've said in the previous two posts. Anyway, he goes over to tarp up the tree and the hole and while he was doing this his ex-wife goes into his car and takes out his phone, cds, his fiancee's wallet and the stuffed lion she have him for Valentine's day, and puts them on the kitchen table (she doesn't know he's engaged and will be having a step-child). He sees this and goes to put them back in his car and she comes at him with a golf club, hitting him along the arm and back. He gets away from her and gets into his car, intending to drive away when she gets behind his car to keep him in the drive way, he has to make a u-turn through the grass to get back out onto the street.

I always liked my former sister-in-law, but how she managed to let herself get into such a state is beyond me... I'm annoyed and a little worried for my brother. How did my family turn into an episode of cops?

Okay so from around 6:30 - 8:45 there was a light storm in the Kansas City area, it was nothing but a thunderstorm but the city decided to sound the alarms (those of you that I was talking to last night know how much I hate the damn alarms). That storm ended right after the sirens started, it stopped raining and there was no wind, a little lightening but that's Kansas City for you.

When I went to bed at 12:30 it was peaceful and calm with no storms on the horizon for a good week.

I woke up around 2 to the sounds of hail, lightening, thunder, wind and rain. I really thought the storm was going to come crashing through my bedroom windows. You have no idea how loud and jarring all this was, and it looked like somebody put strobe lights against the windows. It did quiet down a bit around 4, I went back to bed, even the cat came out of hiding. Not two minutes after I have fallen asleep I get two phone calls, the first is from my aunt who says she and grandma are fine and still have power (They live in Gladstone and that was the hardest area hit), then my brother who says an 8ft tree just crashed through his wall. He lives about a minute down the road from me.

Ain't northern Missouri great?

A tree went though my brother's house last night and a lot of our windows are cracked due to the hail...

Thanks a lot Kansas City weathermen, maybe next time you could the right time frame for the storm or just not end the severe weather watch.

Okay, I just registered for classes. Thought I might put them up so when I get bitchy next fall you might have a clue as to why.

COMM-ST 394 - The World Of "Film Noir"
- This one is the strange one, I have it only twice a month starting in September.
- 9:00AM - 5:00PM Sat & Sun.

ENGLISH 225 - Eng II:Intermediate Academic Prose
- Another GTA taught course, dear God help me.
- 3:30PM - 4:45PM Mon & Wed.

ITALIAN 110 - Elementary Italian I
- Everyone has been relatively shocked by this, they think I should try Latin again. That will never happen.
- 7:00PM - 9:05PM Mon & Wed.

PHILOSOPHY 210 - Fundamentals Of Philosophy
- I should have taken Logic, but it didn't fit into my schedule.
- 5:30PM - 8:00PM Tu.

Anybody notice anything? I have Thursdays and Fridays off! And it seems most of the time I will have Saturday and Sunday off, so that's 4 consecutive days off... That has never happened before. I really am happy with my schedule, as long as they don't move me. UMKC has this great Java tool now that really helps you choose classes. I'm tempted to say they should just have that instead of advising, cause I waited an hour to speak with somebody over there and he was less than helpful. This also means I'm knocking my freshman year out completely, added all together I should have 38 credit hours by the end of the fall semester. Woohoo!